Clearing the air....

Never in a million years would I have thought that at the age of 28, I would be talking about last wishes. Each previous deployment, AJ has dodged it like no tomorrow. He refused to talk about it. Which always left me uneasy. Because, I know my ultimate wishes for him if something happened, may not be what others had in mind. Last night we talked about everything. We have a plan now for an injurey, and also if God forbid a casualty. I now know what his ultimate wishes would be, and feel very comfortate, that if I had to make those decisions I could do them and not question.

AJ's brother has already been over this morning. We will head to see his Grandma next. AJ also wants to go to his Dad's grave site to show the boys. I also have never been there. We then will go Bowling followed, by a soccer game in the 90 degree heat we are having again! So, there will be little time to breathe today, but I will cherish every minute.

I can't even express in words what I feel right now. I am so proud, scared, overwhelmed, loved, and a million other emotions I can't put my finger on. Thank you all for your messages and E-mails. I know I will get through this with all of your love and support.